she thought back

It was a real sunny day.

A perfect day to hang clothes.

She was cycling around the neighbourhood.

Searching for something she had lost.

But she wasn't quite sure where to put her finger.

Until halfway down the road,

She remembered the memories she had lost.

She remembered why things were the way they were.

She remembered a story all too familiar.

It all happened on a cool day.

She had repeated the scene so many times.

She thought it would all be easy.

She was wrong.

She stuttered again and again.

Twice to be exact.

Twice in the same year.

Twice she hurt them and herself.

Her mouth said, 

I don't think it would work.

Her actions was forced.

Her arms wanted to hug but

Her mind told her not to.

Her heart was screaming

Yet she refused to admit it.

Refused to respond the loud calling.

Few months have passed.

The situations have changed.

The people have changed.

While they have moved on,

She has remained to where she was.

She tried but she couldn't.

Her regrets were useless.

They would not listen.

Try as she would,

Her screams were useless.

They had chosen to ignore her.

They had chosen to believe the lies.

They knew about the lies but they were tired.

And so was she.

The cat and mouse game had to end.

Only this time,

The mouse would surrender if she could.

If she could turn back time,

She would if only she could.

She would be more decisive.

She would have said out loud,

Those very 3 words that took a lot of guts.

These very words that would have changed her life,

I LOVE YOU.

tash

studying has driven me up against the wall

ps: i got into BRATs camp.