050210- NOT

i am seriously seriously NOT happy this week.
i mean, not like i want to laa. im not that not happy.
im just. not really satisfied. yeahh.. thats the word.
lmao.
bloody hell you know my mum? yeahh. we all know her.
im not complaining much laa. but true i havent been practicing my violin that much or my piano to be honest that often like i used to. bla. give me more time or limitless energy (AND NO EYEBAGS) and I WILL PRACTICE.
also, for YE, i got AMD. assistant managing director. i would say im really happy happy-ish to get the post.
which i partially am now laa. lmao. i aimed for MD but owh well.. teacher said cause she not only wants us to excel in YE but also to excel in.. school. probably cause i filled the whole stupid ko-ku box to the maximum. blaa. owh well, i hope this year's YE will co-operate. the sky's the limit.
then there's homework. i can cope i seriously can. im doing this year without tuition. but the way everyone tells me, sometimes im not sure i can do it. the more i try, the more i think im gonna fail this year.
im meeting new people now. more like opening to the people i thought i'd never be able to talk to cause i always thought there was a wall. there is laa. but idk. lmao. i just hope the wall falls and crumble to pieces. 
on the other hand, the old friends are a lil' shaky. the relationships between them. idk. IDK anything.
i need. I WANT A WEEK OFF FROM EVERYTHING.
cause somehow, IDK ANYTHING ._.
IM SO UNSURE. LMAO.
this feels like a, "READ ME POST" but seriously, its a LET EVERYTHING OUT POST >:D

i honestly hope that YE rocks this year. and that i can bond with those members ><
i seriously wish that friendships will grow stronger and prosper with joy and honesty.

tash

sit back. relax. observe.