bottled up

like each bottle, they're three quarters full.
like each bottle, there's a reason why they're coloured so.
green for envy, orange for hatred, blue for sadness.

i envy the way you guys connect.

i envy the way you guys laugh.

i envy the way you guys dont have to worry about anything

i envy the way you guys can just be. you.

i hate it when you guys leave me alone.

i hate it when you guys act like its nothing.

i hate it when you guys treat me as nothing.

i hate it when you guys just do the things you do.

i get sad everytime i see history repeating itself.

i get sad everytime i see how you guys dont appreciate it.

i get sad everytime i realise just how small i mean to you.

i get sad everytime i notice how you guys actually think of me.

if i could do one thing right now.

i would have made sure that my heart was sealed.

so that i wouldnt have to get hurt and witness all that i have now.

tash

silence is golden